I’m miles from where you are

When I say “I’m miles from where you are”…I’m talking about myself. Myself myself myself….me. Who am I? I have transformed so much in just the past year….for the better…and for the worse. Idk. I’m a confusing topic for myself to think about…

Anyway.

I decided that I like how nice I am.

I’m glad I’m not a major biotch to ayone because I wouldn’t like it if someone treated me that way…right? Obviously I’m going to still stick up for myself when people are rude…but I’ll do it in my own super-nice way…cos I’m nice like that.

And obviously I went through that phase (and yes, it was a phase) where I hated being nice because everyone was walking all over me and treating me like crap and I hate being taken advantage of….but what’s more important…my feelings or my character? I guess that depends on the situation…but I can suck it up sometimes if it means I’m still a nice person who mostly gets along with everybody. So yeah.

You know what I love? Strawberry applesauce.

You know what I hate? Avacado’s and people who don’t accept you for who you are.

But I don’t WANT to…

So many people want me to change.

Thank God for Kim and Connor and Sarah (both Sarah’s actually…) and Briana and Emily…cos if I didn’t have then, I’d be over the edge.

I don’t want to change because I don’t feel like I’m doing anything that needs changing!!

I talked to Sarah about it today in the car. She completely agree’s with me and said that she’s here for me no matter what and told me to keep my head up and not let anyone get to me. She said “If you try to change, change for YOU, not your parents or friends or anyone else” and she’s right. Because, guess what? It’s not THEIR life, it’s mine…and I’m going to live it the way I feel is right, and if I’m completely worng baout this, then I’ll have to pay for it at some point…and that’s something I’ll have to live with.

My Mom is on the phone with Stephen Bennet right now..they’re organizing a time for me to come and see him. I don’t WANT to go! But whatever.